He is so Busy

today is jus a normal day ... Oh jus tt i M broke ! ... Lol running out of cash .... Any way still can survive .... + )

My Fat pig seem soooo Busy .... always so busy .. yesterday say wan to call mi after work but didnt call... he finish work around 1130 pm ... -_-" Lol btw i slept early yesterday 845 on my stupid bed liao ... = X even if he call also cannot reach mi ...

Jus now he call Mi ... but i didnt ans ..... =_=" he still at work cos he using office nUm ... sAd .. hE sure every tired de ..... AHHhhhhhhhh why like tt ..... why ppl work sooo HArd when they don even know wad they working for ? ... the future? haizz ....... I don wana work so hard without any reason ..... for $$? haizz.....

Today met my grandmom .. lOl she out of cash ... early morning call mi ... haha Ask for $100 .. too much ... Lol can afford to give her ... only give her 20 first ... sad .. cant provide her when she is broke ... I told her to cook at hm .. so to save more money ... i jus home i can give her More ... but i really don wana touch my saving acc ... U know i m a person who don save .... so now i save is becos of my future. ..... haiz ......... HOpe mOney drop from sky ... LOL.... wad if money is not impt in this world ... wad happen when every thing is not like now ... i wish i can build my own house on a big piece of land .... = ) My dream ... this may not come true ... = ( .....


Oh ... when i was toking to my grandmom today ... we tok abt future Lol .... i told her rating a house is sooo exp ... complianing lOl than i told her when i 22 i going to ROM ... Lol .... her reaction was OK ..... LOl........ i think she really very supportive le ....... Lol ... guess she know i m serious this time.... I told her i have some Cash wif my bf .... and she say nvm la ..... jus give him la ... Waahhahaa -__-'" some thing really werid abt her.. cos she know tt he spend alot on mI = / .... Anyway .. my money is Mine his money is MIne toOOO lOl... $_$ Lol Jus kidding = p ...

the person i need can nv be reach

I called and called ..... all i hear is either i cannot get through or the operator say" the starhub user i m calling cannot be reach"

i keep calling although i know wad result i would get ... i know i wont be able to get through.. i jus hope some how it get through.. i jus hope some how i get miricle ..... it nv did although....
The only possible thing is that his Hp totally low batt or he is on the phone .... guess his hp totally low batt and he is still working .... guess he is super stress now.... over his project... He told mi he got Diarreah today..... he went to poly clinic ... and he going back to work after seeing the doc ... Poor thing rite .....

But i cant reach hm now... i haven been seeing him yet .... i feel sad ... will i b cure after seeing him? or it will get worsen even time i nv see him .... or he is not affected by mi ...... i suddenly feel like being hug by some one who love mi very much from the back... i love being hug from back ....it feel like i have a shell to protect mi from behind .... like tutle .... = )

wad my level of pirioty in ur heart..... i think it has lessen ... maybe ........ it nv been high at all ? LOl ....... sian ...... after a sleep .... wad i felt today is gone ....... and it will hide in my unconcience side ........ hide there forever ....... don know when will it come out again ......

wad a bf

Some oNe commented that i have got a bf ........but it seem like i don have a bf ....

Some time i think it true too ..... becos wad really is a bf ?
Someone u love and someone who love u ? issit this only?
plus also someone who u call to talk about thing happened Today On the phone .... chit chat .. u love mi i love u ... bla bla bla ...... ?
Some one whom u wish to see all the time....
Someone when u don see him jus 1 wk u feel terrible .... u feel like a person who need drug badly ( i think not so worse la )

I feel werid ... i always tot he is the only one who care abt mi ......... but it not true .... some one else care too .... why do tt someone else care when i don even Care for him at all .... why love is sooo stupid ....... like no Brain ....

I mISs Him

TOday is sat .... Normally i would met him ...... But today we didnt met ..... not even tml (sun) too .... = ( haizz. during afternoon it was alrite... I have got my grandmom accompany ... than later on i got Jacky accompany ..... untill after the mOvie .. i was left alone ... i feel Lonely cos the road look so dark .... i feel so unsecure ..... Haizz..... not at home ... cant hear his voice... = ( sad ... cos his Hp low batt... whole day i feel so sad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! any way i finally ... taste the feeling of missing him... last time always see him lIke ..... Don really have the feeling of missing .... now ...... i really feel like hugging him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! = ( i miss his everything !!!!!!!! i really hope we can met tml ......... really...........

My secret been review

I m so sad today..... Be cos my best sis found out one of my secret which i Hide from Her..... I think i hurt her ... She always try to cover for mi my mistakes... i feel so guilty ...... i tried to forget but ...... i didnt know she will find out .... it all My fault ... i feel very bad now .. i donknow how to face her ... she been always so nice to mi .... she scolded mi i tot we are not going to b friend again ......... haizz.... once again she forgive mi ....... i don deserve it at all ........ i should be left alone ............ i don know how to face her when i see her ....... i don know wad to tell her when we see each other ...... she is jus so unlucky to have mi ......