Forest

Do nOT Abandon the Forest JUst Becos OF a Tree........

I m SOoo TIred

so tired...... not only having tiring Body but also tiring Life........

Went early morning out to swim wif Candy n shan ..... Great we gal start chat again ..... after tt went shopping .... Walk walk walk guess we really used alot energy.... pretty tired when we reach ah gong place....... Felt great when we drink the cool Ice Lemon Tea ..................
After GO home ........

I m tired of life becos i found no purpose in my life ......... working hard so that i could live a better living in the future ...... so that my kid will enjoy more ..... so that life next time wont be like now ........ really tired... i jus wan to be a gardener ........ LOl funny huh .... gardener... i wish to plant beautiful plant....... flowers........... a big piece of land ...... but once i think of those worm .. E.. haizzz I think human really work too hard ........ i think human doesnt really know wad life .... not even mi ..... PPL work hard jus to have better future............. wad is really a better future? lot of money ? haizz .......

I spent 70 dollar today ........ i felt heart pain ............ LOl although to rich ppl it is small amount cos my work place 70 dollar cant even but a full piece of swim wear ......... but i still feel sad .... cos i didnt save tt up .......... i feel regret .......... why i spend without thinking ........ why cant i be more thrifty......... Life tough now ............... Money really very important .................. although many thing money cant but ......... but alot thing money can which we really need it ......... food ... clothes .. other temptation things....... i m so tired ...... i don wish to fuss up tt 70 ..... blame myslef .... i doesnt have determination ..... go on diet also like tt .. save money also like tt ......


hopeless mi .............

i feel burden now .... really.. i can feel my back getting heavier and i know it will be heavier .....

the chalet

HAd the chalet done smoothly....... Mi shan candy knee and my little cutie pie ... plus my lame cousin ...... total only 6 ppl LOl

Baby took half day for the first day and took leave on the second day ...... so i had him wif mi for 1 1/2 day....... It was great wif some little not great in it .... = ) 230 we check in ...... he was suppose to met mi at 230 .. when i called he told mi in the cab... so i tot he coming .... inthe end i call him why haven reach he say on the bus .... i was blur .... i don know where he took the cab to ...... he reach at 4 plus . i was abit pissed ... bcos he didnt mention thing properly... like trying to hide... it terrible to keep thinking was he is hiding ....


any way ... we had fun ...... he came .. awhile later we had the BBq .... he started the fire . lOl his hand was all black ...the best part was his nose kana some chacoal ... LOl..... look so cute .. he feed mi alot ..... the best food he always deserve for mi .. jus like the OTA on my plate it was cook a while ago ... his was jus cook and he exchange for mi and gave mi the Hot Nice OTa...... isnt he great ..... and keep feeding mi the bread that he toasted ..... i feel like princess ...


THe best part was at nite ........ we squeeze ourselve in the small single bed ... LOl.. it feel warm .. lying on his shoulder and slp .. it been so long slping on his shoulder and hugging his fat tummy .. + ) first nite wasnt great cos i hardly sleep cos he snore too loud !!!!!! i was so afraid that my friends couldnt slp becos of him so i didnt slp to watch him slp almost whole nite ... to make sure he doesnt snore too loud . if he does .... i will jus lighty pinch his nose Hee .... i know it a bit funny but tt the only way he don snore too loud .... did had a good slp make mi so tired ... but second nite was the best ........... = )

Next morning went to arcade play had lunch .. go back room ... my cutie pie went to slp again .. i didnt want him slp cos he slp so much ... It like he slp not becos he is tired but it a habit he become .......... so i lied beside him while he snore i keep disturbing him .. shake him to wake up ... bite him ......... keep toking to him ..... he jus doesnt want to wake up ...... i so sad ....... i slp beside him looking at him .. saw his irritated face ..... = ( he was like wanting to scold mi ...... ...... but he didnt he jus turn his back to face mi .. than look at his back ... i cried ... i don know why i cried ... maybe cos i haven been seeing him and yet this is the way he treated mi ... i cover the blanket from my toe to my head....... cry and cry (slient) until i fall aslp ..... i don know when i fall aslp.... but when i wake up ....... i saw the blanket is not covering my face anymore ...... and i m slping on my cutie pie should .... i don know how i end up slping on his should ...... but some how i feel happy ... Lol he seem hugging mi tight .. than i forgot everything abt him ignoring mi when he was slping ....... love is jus so blind ............ i keep asking how did my head end up on his shoulder ...... and he keep saying magic ... -__-" ... some how i really wish when i was slping ... he is looking at my thinking i m so cute .. LOL !!!!!!!! cos when he slp i really like looking at him ... like a baby ..... = )

during the nite ...... around 1 am then slp cos he was watching the race car....... i was pretty tired so i lied on the bed first while he sitting there watching tv .........when the race finish he still watching the person toking ........when i hear the toking part i become more tired .... LOl... than he switch off the tv and there goes our nite sleeping this time i got no strength to watch him slp cos i m really tired.... but a bit sad cos it the last day and tml he going to work again.... 645 he going to wake up ... so hope he had a good slp ... i feel like we are old couple ..... i don know why ... jus feel like we are not anymore those dating couple .......... some time i hope he pay a bit more attention to mi ....... example ..... look into my eyes and say "i love u " sincerly ... hug mi from behind .......... bla bla bla ..........

when 645 am strike ....... he already woke up ..... i open my eye saw him walking to the out of the toliet ... than he pack his things ........ i walk him down ....... hug and good bye kiss.......... and i already started to miss him already ....... i saw him walk away ....... went back to room and slp but feel that the bed had more space ..... really miss him ....... although we jus spend 1 1/2 day together ....... It like nv been enough for mi ..... = ) really miss him

Memories

U promise that u tried to met mi on fri ...... i was excited .. but sadly again u say u will be working late ..... so we cant met ......


remember last time u took ur time cycle all the way from ur house to mine .... now is jus memories...


on sat i was working hoping to see u although i m still angry abt friday ... cos u didnt even msg mi when u reach hm ... tot u coming ..... and again ......u sms mi say u going dinner wif ur parents and grandmom ..... we cant met .... i almost break down ...


remember last time christmas ..... ur parents came to sg ....... when i was working .... i left my wallet in the shop no money to go home not even bus fare.... u came all the way down from woodland ur grandmom's house... pass mi some money.. and sent mi home


I always feel i m giving too much and u giving too little .... i feel so bitter ......


Thing Change .........


so do u .........


Let all these be memories ......

Jia YoU !!!!!!

H mmm hi everyone long time no see ........ Miss Mi Huh ? LOl = )

Well Due to my internet break down and also exam time .... i didnt online for almost 1 week or more i guess...... Anyway now HOLIDAY Yeahh !!!!! YippY!!!

Holiday i going to really go on diet ! i even bought Wt Machine ... SEE i m serious this TIme .>>. lOL... but don know will success anot ... Jus now .. Candy and mi decided to slim down by this yr ..... Lol Don know can anot = p I really wan to slim la ....... LIke the Jing Shang Sung... LOl wahaha she damn cute le. ...

I bought new swim costume... Pls give mi the determination ............... = ) Jai YOu Pig!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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He is so Busy

today is jus a normal day ... Oh jus tt i M broke ! ... Lol running out of cash .... Any way still can survive .... + )

My Fat pig seem soooo Busy .... always so busy .. yesterday say wan to call mi after work but didnt call... he finish work around 1130 pm ... -_-" Lol btw i slept early yesterday 845 on my stupid bed liao ... = X even if he call also cannot reach mi ...

Jus now he call Mi ... but i didnt ans ..... =_=" he still at work cos he using office nUm ... sAd .. hE sure every tired de ..... AHHhhhhhhhh why like tt ..... why ppl work sooo HArd when they don even know wad they working for ? ... the future? haizz ....... I don wana work so hard without any reason ..... for $$? haizz.....

Today met my grandmom .. lOl she out of cash ... early morning call mi ... haha Ask for $100 .. too much ... Lol can afford to give her ... only give her 20 first ... sad .. cant provide her when she is broke ... I told her to cook at hm .. so to save more money ... i jus home i can give her More ... but i really don wana touch my saving acc ... U know i m a person who don save .... so now i save is becos of my future. ..... haiz ......... HOpe mOney drop from sky ... LOL.... wad if money is not impt in this world ... wad happen when every thing is not like now ... i wish i can build my own house on a big piece of land .... = ) My dream ... this may not come true ... = ( .....


Oh ... when i was toking to my grandmom today ... we tok abt future Lol .... i told her rating a house is sooo exp ... complianing lOl than i told her when i 22 i going to ROM ... Lol .... her reaction was OK ..... LOl........ i think she really very supportive le ....... Lol ... guess she know i m serious this time.... I told her i have some Cash wif my bf .... and she say nvm la ..... jus give him la ... Waahhahaa -__-'" some thing really werid abt her.. cos she know tt he spend alot on mI = / .... Anyway .. my money is Mine his money is MIne toOOO lOl... $_$ Lol Jus kidding = p ...

the person i need can nv be reach

I called and called ..... all i hear is either i cannot get through or the operator say" the starhub user i m calling cannot be reach"

i keep calling although i know wad result i would get ... i know i wont be able to get through.. i jus hope some how it get through.. i jus hope some how i get miricle ..... it nv did although....
The only possible thing is that his Hp totally low batt or he is on the phone .... guess his hp totally low batt and he is still working .... guess he is super stress now.... over his project... He told mi he got Diarreah today..... he went to poly clinic ... and he going back to work after seeing the doc ... Poor thing rite .....

But i cant reach hm now... i haven been seeing him yet .... i feel sad ... will i b cure after seeing him? or it will get worsen even time i nv see him .... or he is not affected by mi ...... i suddenly feel like being hug by some one who love mi very much from the back... i love being hug from back ....it feel like i have a shell to protect mi from behind .... like tutle .... = )

wad my level of pirioty in ur heart..... i think it has lessen ... maybe ........ it nv been high at all ? LOl ....... sian ...... after a sleep .... wad i felt today is gone ....... and it will hide in my unconcience side ........ hide there forever ....... don know when will it come out again ......

wad a bf

Some oNe commented that i have got a bf ........but it seem like i don have a bf ....

Some time i think it true too ..... becos wad really is a bf ?
Someone u love and someone who love u ? issit this only?
plus also someone who u call to talk about thing happened Today On the phone .... chit chat .. u love mi i love u ... bla bla bla ...... ?
Some one whom u wish to see all the time....
Someone when u don see him jus 1 wk u feel terrible .... u feel like a person who need drug badly ( i think not so worse la )

I feel werid ... i always tot he is the only one who care abt mi ......... but it not true .... some one else care too .... why do tt someone else care when i don even Care for him at all .... why love is sooo stupid ....... like no Brain ....

I mISs Him

TOday is sat .... Normally i would met him ...... But today we didnt met ..... not even tml (sun) too .... = ( haizz. during afternoon it was alrite... I have got my grandmom accompany ... than later on i got Jacky accompany ..... untill after the mOvie .. i was left alone ... i feel Lonely cos the road look so dark .... i feel so unsecure ..... Haizz..... not at home ... cant hear his voice... = ( sad ... cos his Hp low batt... whole day i feel so sad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! any way i finally ... taste the feeling of missing him... last time always see him lIke ..... Don really have the feeling of missing .... now ...... i really feel like hugging him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! = ( i miss his everything !!!!!!!! i really hope we can met tml ......... really...........

My secret been review

I m so sad today..... Be cos my best sis found out one of my secret which i Hide from Her..... I think i hurt her ... She always try to cover for mi my mistakes... i feel so guilty ...... i tried to forget but ...... i didnt know she will find out .... it all My fault ... i feel very bad now .. i donknow how to face her ... she been always so nice to mi .... she scolded mi i tot we are not going to b friend again ......... haizz.... once again she forgive mi ....... i don deserve it at all ........ i should be left alone ............ i don know how to face her when i see her ....... i don know wad to tell her when we see each other ...... she is jus so unlucky to have mi ......

had a great week End

(SAT) ....
My dream !!!!!!! Mountain ! yeah ... hey people don think bukit timah hill is nothing ..... Lol i climb like shit ... wahaha finally i sweat shiokly.... we took a fat and beautiful butterfly ... =) It don feel afraid at all we was so near it .. = ) than tall treess. beautiful place ...... i wish i stay near there ..... so i could hear nature sound .. really ... MAny people where there .... climbing up .... walking down (backwarD) .... i tried .. not back . it smoother when u walk backward down hill ..... the road it steep .. very steep at some point ... Lol we wanted to go to the backveiw .. something to see the beautiful sceenary ..... but couldny find it ... than ... we tried a small road ..it is name SUMMIT ROAD ... lol it a high high stair way... uneven stair way.. my worse nightmare ... lol we climb till half way .. baby was like ..... going to die ..... keep on saying wah lao ... tired le .... lol .... it true tiring .. i climb half way i could feel my muscle pain ... great to feel pain .... i feel like going eveyweek but my baby look at mi and laugh like clown .. -__-" sian ... i really wan to ......... lose wt climb mountain ...... !!!!! thank baby !!!!! for accompanying mi = )


Most impt after climbing ..... we took cab back to his HOuse ...... lOL u know i m sooo happy ... he been refusing to let mi go his house becos it is very messy.... it really turn out worse than i thought .... i felt guilty the moment i step in .... for not understanding his situation .. i m sorry i didnt mean it ..... i didnt know thing turn out to b sooo bad ... thing change really fast ... the room is messy ... i wish as a gf i could help u clean it up but i cant becos i don know where to start .... i really wish i could find u a house as soon as possible .... i will i can lesser ur burden... we were so tired we fall aslp ... he start snoring again lOL ....... his brother fahsi ( don know how to spell) suddenly came back hm .. go abit shock lOL but he is so far ok to mi ... i fall aslp .... have him beside mi slping and snoring ... i m not sure if i did snore becos i found myself .. opening my mouth when i was slping .... = P .... later his brother see ..... e.. why this girl like this wan lOL .... hahaha Stupid baby say i got snore >_<... he snore like pig lo ..... anyway when he wake up he got his energy back he went wash up and we head to orchard .... lol he really got his energy back .. not like last time always so slpy ... we long time nv walk tt carpark ... nv walk tt path way ... nv take bus together at the bus stop ... so many many ........ really thank u .. baby ... u trusted mi ... =) i m glad ..... i don mind anything ..... as long as u are here with mi ... I promise when we have a house i make it like a hotel ..... = ) .... as clean as u can imagine (try my best la ) lol = p


(SUN)
i thought today we wont b meeting when u msg mi u working ......... i felt abit sad .... but anyway i need to study mar..... so it ok la ..... 1015 i left my house..... i reach my grandparent place at 11 too early when i was outside center point i recieve a msg from baby he say he might met mi today at 3pm.... LOl i fu*king happy ..... lol i feel so great ... u tried ur best to met mi .. thank again ........ anyway i waited there while having my vegetarian noodle ....bee hoon .. lOL nice full too . =) than i started my revision ... didnt really have much mood to study ..... = ( .. than he came around 5 pm ... lol late rite at first we thought of going mustafa .... but when we got on to 65.. i said i don wan buy phone ... than he say don wan buy go mustafa for wad so he say go PS than we jus drop the next stop lol...... than went to watch Lake HOuse ... so nice show !!! .... before the show start we went archade ... = ) he play his racing ..... i saw ppl playing the game like price i don know how to explaint .... inside got PSP and other hP... we aiming the PSP almost 10 dollar on it ,... waste money didnt get it ...... we wasnt tt lucky . =/......... no choice life .. lOL .. after movie he help mi flag cab ..... got a marc ..... wah ....... lol beatiful cab = ) than he took 7 bus back home ......... thank honey....... u are great this week end ....... = ) ............

My first 4D... (2419)

Sunday30 Jul 06
Draw No: 2418 <---- don know wad is this but almost the same as my first num = )
1st Prize
4493
2nd Prize
1500
3rd Prize
1327
Starter Prizes
1383
2899
3011
4073
5142 <---- not so close ... (9142) lol
5761
6623
7945
8725
9932
Consolation Prizes
1167
3768
4251<---- same numbering as the top one ... lol cool men
5977
6523
7326
8368
8683
8786
9144

My first day of buying lottery today .. not very proud ... at first was to help my ah ma buy ... i didnt buy any thing for myself although i feel like.... but maybe it really meant for mi to buy ..... i gave my ah ma back her lottery .... after buying for her ...... later ... an hr later ... my ah gong ask if i can help her buy lol !!!!!! ... so which mean i went two time ... --_--" so jus nice baby jus reach .... so i ask him pass mi $1 .. = p i went to but 2419 = ) didnt got it .. any way luck wasnt with mi .... or him ........ = )

SUpre Tired

Today been super tireD ! ...... sian Phyco project going to drag again.... wah lao .... Next week due but nth Come out yet ..........

TOk to him on the photo jus now .... sian ... like wan to die like tt ...... Nothing much to talk abt ........AHhhhhhhhhhhh why my love life soOOOoo Boring ! .... i wan to change Partner .....!! can i have someone more Romantic . and ... Most of all ...... feel excited when i m around when toking to mi ... when i call him when i msg him...... when Everything involve abt mi ......... My wHite Horse Prince.......... waHHh -__-" don have le .......... i think i got the chocolate colour prince ....... haizz... AM i too demanding .... ? AM IIIIIi?

Guess my prince is aslp .... guess he is in his wonderland without mi ..... He nv need Mi..........
I m Alone .......

Sun

today ........ went to k box and movie wif candy ........ really gald she is free .... . becos .... don know who else .... is free....... He went to pula ubin cycle ........ so i have to find my own activity .... sorry candy ..... lOL ..... u not my spare tire k ! .... u my Dearest xiao mei ..... great shopping wif u ..... it seem like we today really spend alot le ...... LOL k box ...... movie ....... ur skirt and top ... and food ...... Lol..... we bought the same TOP again!!!!!!!!!!! lol .........


after shopping at zara ..... i told her tt all for today ....cos i tot might be meeting him .... but jus nice he say ...... he going to slp soon ..... = ( ..... haiz the was 630 ... he really tired ... cos he woke up very late....... my heart really wanted to see him even not tt i wan him to come down .... i tot of going to see him...... but it is always not the way he think...... felt abit unhappy but no choice ......... have to go back tt house ..... while walking to the bus stop .. feel really lonely so i don wana recieve any call or make any call..... so i jus switch off my hp.... i don know wad on my mind when i was in the bus ....... it seem blank ...... couldnt think much ... guess i m tired too ...

When reach hm .... light off ... door off ...... window close + ) he is not at hm ........ great ..... on the tv ....... on com .... and jus slack .........bath ....... than now .. typing my blog again ........ LOl ........ my feeling rite now is jus like the day when i was with alex........ i guess i become to dependent on him..... i realise it hard to go without him........ pretty bad.... i don wish to be like tt .. i still wan to be my strong women ....... can any one tell mi how not to b to dependent on him? ....... stay at hm ? i hate hm ..... go out wif friend? not always cos where got tt money ..... go out alone ? i will keep thinking ........ haizzz... go to hell then ............. LOL ................. god accompany.... = ) tt all for today .......

Fri ANd Sat

Well yesterday ..... or i should say on fri .... i went zpop with my cousin .... Hmm not a bad experience ...... Jolin was there........ her Breast Big ! .... -__-" ... lol .... reach aunt house around 12 ....... pretty tired. than .... slp till next morning ......

830 wake up to bath... cos going to met him for lunch .... Burger king Breakfast .. than he walk mi to the MRT ..... than he proceed to his work place.......

Once reach sch around 1115... opps ..lol soo late... than "my Friend" lol .... waiting at the entrance for mi ... i m the most late.... loL any way great day of doing project.... we complete every as create table and insert data.. now left the module.. hmm JIA You !.. after tt went to tampinese .. sat go take photo together !... lOL ... from CS..... go to tm..... than go back to CS lol cos tm newprint shop alot ppl . wait wait wait....... The pic is really cute ...........

After tt went we huimin to bugis change doraemo bag.. lol other not very suitable .. so nv change... than she went to buy mac for her cousin ........ than she took train hmm .... than mi ...... as usual orchard ...... so long nv see grandparents... sit there don know from wad time till wad time ........ i leave around 530 .... to heeren to shop .....
he reach around 630 .... than we went to eat jack place......... suppose to met miko ... and simin but miko must fly again ...... sian .... lol ....... so last min ask him out ... he seem tired cos he went cycling ........ sat and sun go cycling ....... nv leave his energy for mi...... so selfish .... haizz...... he so call force to go hm with mi ........... as usual ..... he slept in the bus like pig still can hear his snoring .. -__-" ....... he is really tired ............ i tried to hold his head .... but very heavy ...-___-" the uncle next to us keep looking .. loL i must b like idiot .....

when reach hm...... suprisingly......around 11 pm .... i online he was online ! u know .. it been long seeing him online ....... felt really happy ....... and most impt is ....... he say he maybe can met mi tml ...... nice rite ?........ lol last time he say tt i wont be so glad....... but now he say wan to met mi willingly ..... lol feel really great ....

What if one day...

What if one day i nv msg u ....

What if one day i nv call u ....

What if one day i nv miss u ...

What if one day i no longer care ...

What if one day i no longer love u ...

What if one day i am longer there ...

What if one day my love for u became Hatre...

Some time girl are really naggy and irritating ...... but wad if one day all these is gone ... she is no longer naggy , irritating.... i feel it kind of scary ....

Worst Dinner

reach home after school ... dad at home ... He been very early this 2 days .... i don feel good ... -_- wad to do ... he happy he come home early ... he not happy he can don come home ... but we people ... not happy ... or happy also got to come back home ... Lol ... Unfair ! riot! ... lol

Any way.... i had the worst dinner... Left over food Yesterday *Yuck*... actually i had a choice not to eat it ..... stupid mi ... -__-" ... Better don like mi sick again .... I cant imagine the grosh food is in my stomach now..... euee... (Don think abt it don think abt it ) ....


TOday .. suppose to do Phyco project ... but my group member had to do another project of their own... time seem to be running out ...... haizz.. any way mi and Huimin got 2-6 which is 4 hr break .... = ) we got the chance to watch "I AM SAM" a touching movie ....plot that is abt a retarded dad ... his so call " wife" ran away the day she(lucy) was born.. because she cannot accept a husband who is retarded ... sad rite .... he a reatarded guy raise his own child till 7 yr old... at this point the people think he cannot have the ability to support her or teach her because he only have a 7 yrold capacity.... alot of court fight....I am not going to tell u the whold story ..... any way is has a good ending ..... = )

Now at home doing nth ........ playing game stop mi from thinking wad the outside world is .... so ... soon i m going to play game again ....

Neat and Tidy

From today on ... i need to be Neat and tidy ! Most Important is No spelling Mistake!... LOl kind of difficult to achieve.. my spelling is always the Rot to the Rotten ~


This week been so busy project project project ! ... today OPSY interview Just end... + ) one word "DOOM" ... lol it sux the room so silence... JL suppose to help us but - __-" he also had problem with the Virtual memory and Physical momory... lol ...
Our lab tutor comment that we should be more prepare about understand all those things(VMM,CSTP,TPC/IP etc) LOl ahhhHH going crazy about these ... anyway .. who care It Over ! although still got exam ... diao ~ ...


I suddenly miss my lao peng you (old friends) .... SImin u stupid idiot la ... than for ur testi ... i recieve a testi today so happy though I got a testi i got a testi! in the end it say " i hate u bitch" lol.. u sluty ! .. wad make u think i love u ... siao ! ... I miss MiKO!!!! i miss Candy !!!!! i miss Shan( i jus saw her yesterday LOL) !! i miss vani !!! i miss .... hmm ok la i miss tt SiIiiMin ... (yeeuu!) tt grosh ... lol


so many thing to do so little time ... some time i wonder why human are always so busy rushing for time ... i really envy those ppl who can slowly walk through there life without rushing .. and most importantly they are happy ... ever wonder if u have the time what would u want to do ? ... gardening ... rock climbing ...tour around the world .... hmm isnt it great when money is no longer important in this world and people are friendly nice bla bla bla .... haizz.. ok i m dreaming .... = ) any way i wish to build my own BIG BIG house near the sea = )


enjoy ur life to the fullest !

My great dat with u

well well yesterday .... my dream wif him the whole day...... atfer my work 930 .. we met at bugis .. went oppersite to eat ... he ate hmmm mice noddle ... b4 we was abt to go eat a group of youngster suddenly was shouting .. guess they were fighting... 3 against 1 ... lol ... see show ... well after dinner ... we went to around ...... than after tt to bencoolend than selegi..... lol ...... than went to mustafa around 1230 am ..... shop for food and powder cos my leg between pain again ... walk too much .... after that went back ..... than couldnt sleep both of us walking tt stupid "tang bo hu" show ... than after a stupid show abt killer ..... almost 2am plus than really sleep ... his SNore Really loud !!!!! lol ..... buai ta han ..... -___- sleep sleep sleep ...... around 7 plus i woke him up Oppsy...... lOL sorry i m early bird ! ... than we went eat our Free breakfast ...... lOL .....

well he keep asking mi to go hm ... pls understand mi .. it really sad when thing is not tt good ... our relationship did change .... i had a great day yesterday .. but today ... -__-" i jus got no where to go ....... i cant go wif u ...... and yet don wanan go hm yet..... really lost .........like a little girl in the middle of the road who is lost ...
Watch the movie alone.." just my luck" lol good show ..... some time it feel good watching movie alone too ... show tt i m independent ... lol very good show anyway ... nth much after movie around 7 went hm .... tt all .......

Bad day

Thing turn out to be worse than i expected ........ well today suppose to met him go his house watch movie... yesterday night he wake up at 3 am to watch soccer ... he lost his bet .... sad...
i Know he slept very late yesterday night... so i decided to slowly go his house and wait for him to wake up ... i was at my house bus stop don know where to go ... so wait and wait ... so decided to take 65 to harbour front.... than slowly i went to the board to see where else can i go .... all very far ... chao chu kang .. yishun ... too fast .. so i decided to take 61 to the end station .... but who know he msg mi when i jus board the bus ... it was 1130 plus only.... he wake up so early.. so i tot can met him ...... but he didnt seem to want mi go his house ... he say " but my brothers at home" it seem like i m not welcome .. before tt day already decided to go his house ....men can nv keep his promised.... i was sad ... so i sms him let not met today ... becos .... if he come out he sure very tired ... and we are out of place to go ... so i didnt wan him to come out ... than he say ok to let mi b alone ... i was in the bus 61 .... viewing those trees ..... looking at the sky ... i m sad .... i wonder why cant we b like last time ... (i miss the moment we jus rest at hm and watch tv ... wait till night than take bus hm... )bus go and go .... and i think and think ..

Later when i reach the bukit batok station ... feel hungry ....... thinking again where to go .... no where ..... so thought of taking the bus back ..... so i sms him to met mi at holland for lunch ....
When i reach ... we went eat lo ... don feel good .. he seem tired... after lunch didnt know where to go .... haizz... than we went to the nearest shop the Factory store ah ... alot clothes inside .... but i still feel sad ..... he keep asking mi where to go .... orchard ? yishun ? ... i didnt wan to go anywhere firstly i know it will be boring ... secondly he is tired... so m i ... thirdly ... there is nth much we can do ... so i say i go home lo .... so he can go back his home too ... i said something bad ... i told him his brothers more impt ... he was angry ... i am not wrong .... although i don know his brother well ... but i dislike them... becos .. they make him change ... becos they AFFECT my relationship with him..... haizz.... when the bus come ... i jus say bye ...... and board the bus .. i WISH ... i was wishing him to board the bus too .. he didnt ... LOl.... not the first time anymore ......... don know why i still couldnt get use it ... still cry in the bus ... i look silly ... silly to fall in love again with someone who is not garantee... I wanted to jus say break again ... u know everytime when break out come to my mind ... i would ask myself ... am i able to live without him ... am i able to take it ... am i able to forgot it ... when u are angry u always say YES I AM.... Lol i can ... but i need time .... again ... i don know how long i going to get over ... i sad i m being treated like this ... i drop at china town thinking where i could cry out .... later i took 61 again to bugis ... shop ... and shop ... than later 61 again back at my home ... 530 i reach hm ... i hate being home so early ... i dislike to b hm so early ... sadly he doesnt know tt ... ppl who know mi ... know i hate my home .... sadly the person i love ... doesnt know .... becos he jus let mi go ........ i think i m going to break down .... why thing change........

i don know wad ur problem for not allowing mi to go the familiar house again ... if it was not nice for ur brother to see mi ... or if it was they dislike mi ... or if it was i m not the gf that u wanted them to know .... or if it was u are disgrace to have mi as a gf or if it was wad ever ........
i nv thought ur sibling would affect our relationship .... if i know they would i would nv choose to be with u .. i tot it was good for them to move in wif u becos i know u love them .... i know it good to have company... but u love them so much that u gave them the love tt belong to mi .... i feel terrible ...... being left along in the street again ........... i hate the feeling ..... if i know this would happened i would not agree to let them move in wif u .. if tt would happened i will not put so much love in u ........... i m not scare to be alone ..... i m scare of thee time tt need to cure myself again .......

my brother would nv interrupt in my life ...... i would nv interrupt in my brother life at all ... yes maybe i don love him(my brother) sometime i hate him.... i would still help him i could he would still help mi if he could .............. i love the life tt mi and my bro ...... becos ..... he nv affect my relationship wif u .... most imptly ....... he accepted u ..... he predict tt mi and alex wont last.. he got it ........... now he see my relationship .. he didnt comment anything ............. we share thing our story together .... we fight sometime ......

Btw i took i leave home at 1030 ...... i met him at 1 30 .... which mean i was traveling around the bus for 3 hrs... can believe it rite .... lol ...... i cant believe it too .... whenever i m sad ... i would jus board any bus ... let it take mi to where it goes.... so tt my sadness will jus drop at every bus stop it stoped.... sadly it nv drop .... it still around mi ........... i really really had a bad day ....... i feel not loved anymore .... why ..... if a guy really care would he jus leave u ..... i was alone at the street ... i know he is slping at home now.... thinking everything will be alrite .... but i m not .... accompanying my bf is wrong ? all i wan is jus spend time with u i don mind sit at home whole day watch tv or hearing u snor... i don wan u to be always complaining u are tired .... it seem to be my fault as a gf nv let u rest always want to met u ... maybe really it my fault ... maybe in the first place god should jus create man ....... with no Love in these world ..... Let my love for u fade with the wind ......