Holiday

Life is so tiring some times...

FInally i finish my Exam for 2.2 my last year approaching ... If I were last time, i would cant wait to graduate... Don care 3 ,7, 21 just get Out ... But recently i change my mind becos of him... I don know would it be worth it that i abandon my 10 years goal for this Guy ... Don know why i behave this way ..... people really change when growing old...
Today i feel kind of regret knowing this guy ... i don know why... maybe i feel i m going to be cheated again just like the past ... I was afraid ... Reason was becos .... something i would not wish to say ... i just thinking finally all my friends found "the one" that meant to be in their life... I would think that i already met the one 2 years ago ... but u know this position seem to be very shaky at times... What kind of guy he really is ... I don know ... Why do he love me ? i don know...how much he love me ... the ans fade aways as time goes on .... What is it like to be together forever with him in the same house same bed same environment .... will it be terrible ... or happiness.... he told me if i am able to find a better guy who could give make me happier than he did ... go ahead ... if i did would he be very sad ? .... or happy ... u know as appearance it might seem so happy .. but some time it not like wad i felt ......
I feel so empty ... i feel being cheated at time ... i feel unsafe with him ... i feel not much protection ... i feel less attention compare to other ppl ...

"Understandable" so easy to be say but so hard to fullfill... I didnt give him much pressure on cycling, calls, msg, i try to understand and forgiving no matter what... i always tell myself he is busy with work ... when no calls from him or sms ... i would say he long time nv cycle let him go.... i would always think he got alot burden on financial issue don stress him or over spend ....
but i would always feel empty .... Maybe i should look more on the bright side of life .... like how much he did for me ..... and so on .... but i still could make myself trust him again .... once hurt is always hurt ......

I am so afraid to be stupid for another time ...... i am so afraid all my investment down to drain ... I am so afraid he is not wad he is ....... he might be a lie all the while ...... wad if he is a lie ......

I am feeling stress

I have been slack too much the pass few days....

Now retribution comes.... SWEN,WBAD,GUID,CMSK,UIR all the date due are approaching soon.
I am more worried for my GUID ... which shouldnt be the case.
I have confident in Java programming but this time round, it wasnt like that. I realise I am lost. I simple doesnt know how am I suppose to implement it. I know exactly what I am suppose to do. But I don know how to implement the steps ... Got so frustrated ... Need help ...

Help don always comes... so I am suppose to go look for help ... but who ... that the question ... Lecturer... the are like the most busy people when come to date line because everyone need them ...

I m jus so tired ....

2007

A new year come ...... soooooooooooooo fast.............

Soon enough I am going to turn 20 ---- the number 2 come into place... sound scary to me...

well Life still go on ....

On 1-107
I went to Escape to enjoy myself with my friends.... My prince brought "the newpaper" ... it terrible to read it..
everything is crime ... saddening

The big news was an rich India man rape and murder more than 17 girls and women ... and he buried them at his backyard... the case go on 2 years the polices did nothing due to I don know why.. guess he is rich ... very seddening to read bad news on 1-1-07 ...

That all i have to say ...
and now 9-1-07
rushing my stupid project ... going to die any time ... life is jus purly like that ....
do ppl still have hope about better life ?

my ans is YES......

My brithday

It sunday ... my birthday had pass ....

I had a wonderful day ..... a day i felt happy again LOL...
Though my prince was not tt with me on that day .... but i still had a great time ...
Thank to simin, miko,su chiang .....
any way .. they was late ... - __-"
we went to FIN to eat ... lOL ... 3 of them ate the FIsh N chip ... only mi ate beef... SO hard ..
the Table was shaking while i was slicing it ..
The Drink SUx .. i forgot wad drink.. like peach Passion or something .. tasteless... yUck waste my $4 ... LOL ....

The next day (fri) went out wif candy, shan.... bla bla bla .. LOL or name it all la ... knee , my lame cousin Long... and my Sweety... i have got a lot of good new from there ... or i should say shock new ... anyway .. My sweety Gave mi a very Beautiful Lily ... gosh i really really love it ... think of it now i feel like smelling it now. .. lOL ... too bad i didnt up load those pic in the com yet ... next time than show u guy .... once i saw the Lily .. i jus cant stop smiling .. = ) hee .. my prince at least still got some romance... LOL...
though very happy there was one part i was pretty angry wif tt frog prince ... due to the service we recieve from the Hong kong Delight .... he like those waitress//waiter's nightmare ... so called... "YE MAN" customer ... got so pissed up .. why cant he give them a break .. lucky he my bf .. he treat mi like tt i sure help him water his hair .... hee...
THan candy told mi her Shocking New.. actually i didnt felt shock la ... i jus surprise it so fast ... becos i tot she is very picky de ... didnt know so fast... hmmm lol ...

I really love the lily .. wad should i buy for my bf ... his birthday is jus few days later ahh .. n i think i only left 40 bucks... LOl... Die.... -__-" sent a rose to his house ?.... hmmm i wish i can pack myself in a box and give him .. .LOL .. i scare it his nightmare... lOL .....

I reallyl Really Love the lily .................!!!!!!!! I love u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thing Change

what a boring day ... so dried and so restless ...

i felt my house become jus a hotel ... becos there is ppl who i don know sleep in the same room as me .... they stay few days and goes....

i felt no self of belonging anymore

revenge lead to nothing .... revenge will only get itself hurt ...
i know .. i m toking nonsense again .....

my birthday is coming ... but i felt nothing ... empty ...
i m starting to pretend and fake again...
i remember during secondary school days ... i came across this phrase ....

" WHy do i have to smile when i m sad , why do i have to laugh when i m not happy, why do i have to pretend there is nothing happened at all , why do i have to pretend everything is alrite , why do i have force myself not to cry .... when i couldnt even control myself ..."

i edited some of it ...

i wet my bed again .....

Diary

i Almost forgot i had a blog ... Lol ...

recently .. i keep wanting to write some thing down ... Like keep a diary myself ... Hmm should i ? or should i not ? have to worry so many thing if i were to write... I was thinking a chinese edition diary .. LOl cool Rite ... although blog is also a part of the diary .. but u know ... everyone is always Viewing .. jus like u now reading my stupid BLog....

Wanting to write down my Life ....... so that next time when i look back i would know wad i had done ...... Great rite ...... first of all i need to Get a diary book .......

wad wrong Wif mI today

I simply Miss U....


Love makes smart people do stupid things...


Are u thinking Of mi ?... I am ...


I've noticed that being with you I smile a little more often, I anger a little less quickly, the sun shines a little brighter, and life is very much sweeter. (^v^)

I hope i can stick to U forEver ..... n Ever....

DXO

DXO...

Queue 3hrs jus to get in ....

tot It was lady Nite free enterance ... in the end we have to pay $18 ......

had... water Fall.... Cool...

dance non stop at the dance floor ....

Went toilet vomit .. Grosh ....

End our day wif lAst dance ...

Came out of DXo Vomit Like .... euu....

Took cab Back to HAn House .... really great house n beautiful place .........

My best wKend Wif u ....

i could nv imagine thing turn out to be soo great.... we book a chalet for 1 day on sun.... the day b4 i was really excited ... we have nv tried this b4... jus like the first time we tried going sentosa ... jus the two of us .... whenever i m wif u ... thing turn out to be great...


On the sun ... i was so happy .. n excited cos we going to escapes ... yippy ... total we got 4 tickets.. that stupid simin didnt wan to join so no choice we saw some ang mo .. than jus gave them 2 free tickets... lOl ... our Friends is everywhere lol...


our first ride was gold card.... lol we tot we were quening the rite one where the car goes every fast de... lol we quene the Kid gold card where parent must b guided .... wahaha there were some youngster too lo but mostly are parent n kids... haha we both share a car.. lol best part is we two fat like pig ... squeeze in to that small car really funny ..... i jus cant stop laughing ... he could belt up properly too (too fat) we are the joker down there... OH!!!!! the first one suppose to b hunted house ! LOl i went in ... it was totally dark... lol i told him i don wan go in anymore ... we came out without finish the whole place ... SOrry baby i m jus not tt strong ... = ( ... The kid gold card was fun baby video it ...

later we went to the adult ... don know why tt day alot of youngster .. those ah beng .... sian ... when the race was on... one stupid idiot suddenly cut my into my lane ... damn piss off men .,.. he think he hero ... ZERO lo ... baby went casing after him lol while another malay kid also challenging him . they are really childish ...


after that went to the water boat ... i tot sit at the back wont get so wet ... but in the end ........ i m the one we is the most wet ... he had to gave mi his extra shirt to wear = p hee ... opps... normally go wif simin ... no matter play how many time also wont so wet de ... but this stupid guy .. siam the water ... and all the water kana mi -__-" idiot ...


after tt pirate ship ... lol.... i love the high view when coming down ... LOL


after tt we took the 360 degree ride .... Lol last time took wasnt tt scary ... lol this time really scare the freak out of mi .. i could really see i m touching the floor ... lOL some thing drop out of baby pocket when the ride goes on ...he tot coin ... he keep saying in mine while i doesnt have anything on my porcket at all .. when the ride finish ... it was his KEY!!!!!!!!! LOL... lucky nv drop ... tt ride really make us ..... giddy .. but baby worse...


after tt we went to ride the air space de ... we still play 5 , 10 ,15 on the ride ... LOl and i keep lossing -__-" ... i felt tired after the ride ... feel like slping ... than i told baby .. go take the pirate ship agian ... didnt know he was feeling unwell.. he look super pale ... like going to vomit anything ... call him to shout out to feel better he jus didnt wan ... didnt dare to ask him to take anymore ride ...


so we leave the escape go to arcade ... play basketball... play his soccor game .... play his racing car...

until 2 ... than we go buy bbq thing ... we bought chikcen wing .. garlic bread... hotdog... and break lol tt our bbq thing .. very little rite ... haha who care ... after we bought around time to check in ... the very first thing is ...... lying on tt big bed on mine n slp ... lOl.... we watch tv until almost 5 .... than baby went out to start fire... lOl so early rite ... guess was .. by the time we bbq everything we bought is not even 7 pm !!! lol 7 pm than ppl coming out to bbq while we starting to pack ... LOL the hotdog not nice de ... LOl cheap staff... black pepper chicken >.. Yummy .... and garlic bread ... nice ... i jus like toast bread too ... lol eat bread until i full sia... than next is watch tomd rider ... Not bad show ...... after tomd rider the chinese chn got this ghost movie ... funny n scary lOl.... werid werid de ...


after tt show my piggy slpy liao ... all he say ... baby i slp first k ... LOl. pig rite ! ... 12 pm light out ...... n he started to snore ... wahhaha ... I had a night MarE !!! lOl i woke up at 3 am in the morning having cold sweat ..... LOl it abt baby... his mother n his ex gf ....... LOl... i woke him up saying i have bad dream ... he jus hold mi down n say slp baby LOL..... idiot rite. .. couldnt slp properly ...


he woke up at 5 am to sms his boss say he sick taking MC lol (liar) ... thank baby ... for giving mi a day to b with u ... really happy ... than next morning i woke him up at 9 plus .... than pack everything ... than go Burger king eat breakfast ... $2 breakfast.. yaya cheapo rite ahahah ...... than after tt took MRT to airport... his parent went back iNDo ... waited for him at the buger king for an hour plus... when he came really glad to see him again .. than we took 36 to suntac... play arcade again ... but really tired la... actually suppose to go back his house after airport... but his brother off today .... not nice to go .. hmm wat to do ....


than around 3 than we go home le ... n until now i haven slp !! i m soooooooooooooo slpy !!!!!!!!!!!


baby thank u for such a wonderful day u gave ... it was really fun although u snore very loudly ... and the food it very little .... heee ... i enjoy very much ...

New BLog SKin

First of all .... i Need to tHank My BFG(big friendly giant).... oh .. nonoon... is BFF (best Friend forever) yippy! my blog nice ? nice!!! NICe Rite.... It beauty.....

MO siMin Thank u very much ..... u always help mi change my blog skin ... I admit i m stupid don even know how to change blog skin... how m i going live wihout u Man.... U the mAN!!! lOl

ok ENough my blog is not for praising her ....

Soon... sun is approaching very fast....Finally i can spending quality time wif My darling.. My baby ... my prince ... my piggy... LOl most of all My froggY! lOl any way all refer to the same person ... lOl ....
Today i tok afternoon nap .... i woke up around 6 pm ... i had a missed call from tuga... n a msg... i read the msg it say i m working tml ... N SUN !!!!!!!!! ahhh i supose to have the day wif my Prince !!!!!! i blur blur faster call tuga..... i even forgot Lilian name ah !!! too blur ... she can even know i jus woke up ... sadly i had to tell her sun i cant work only ... on sat ... she seem not happy.. u know ever since i messy up her place she don seem to b happy abt mi .... hmmm = ( ... i feel bad abt it .. but i already book the chalet... no choice .... LOl ...

baby plan everything well on sun ... first we go escape .... in the morning 230 book in ... than rest.. than night time have our 2 person bbq !!!!! cool rite.... yeah i tot so tooo ..... cant wait.. i prepare a surprise for him... lOl i jus now bought alot candles... decided to light the beautiful candles in the room ... lOl late on fire how ...we become roasted pig ... lOL ... i m gona light the room wif candles... romantic rite ! yah !!!!!!!

Forest

Do nOT Abandon the Forest JUst Becos OF a Tree........

I m SOoo TIred

so tired...... not only having tiring Body but also tiring Life........

Went early morning out to swim wif Candy n shan ..... Great we gal start chat again ..... after tt went shopping .... Walk walk walk guess we really used alot energy.... pretty tired when we reach ah gong place....... Felt great when we drink the cool Ice Lemon Tea ..................
After GO home ........

I m tired of life becos i found no purpose in my life ......... working hard so that i could live a better living in the future ...... so that my kid will enjoy more ..... so that life next time wont be like now ........ really tired... i jus wan to be a gardener ........ LOl funny huh .... gardener... i wish to plant beautiful plant....... flowers........... a big piece of land ...... but once i think of those worm .. E.. haizzz I think human really work too hard ........ i think human doesnt really know wad life .... not even mi ..... PPL work hard jus to have better future............. wad is really a better future? lot of money ? haizz .......

I spent 70 dollar today ........ i felt heart pain ............ LOl although to rich ppl it is small amount cos my work place 70 dollar cant even but a full piece of swim wear ......... but i still feel sad .... cos i didnt save tt up .......... i feel regret .......... why i spend without thinking ........ why cant i be more thrifty......... Life tough now ............... Money really very important .................. although many thing money cant but ......... but alot thing money can which we really need it ......... food ... clothes .. other temptation things....... i m so tired ...... i don wish to fuss up tt 70 ..... blame myslef .... i doesnt have determination ..... go on diet also like tt .. save money also like tt ......


hopeless mi .............

i feel burden now .... really.. i can feel my back getting heavier and i know it will be heavier .....

the chalet

HAd the chalet done smoothly....... Mi shan candy knee and my little cutie pie ... plus my lame cousin ...... total only 6 ppl LOl

Baby took half day for the first day and took leave on the second day ...... so i had him wif mi for 1 1/2 day....... It was great wif some little not great in it .... = ) 230 we check in ...... he was suppose to met mi at 230 .. when i called he told mi in the cab... so i tot he coming .... inthe end i call him why haven reach he say on the bus .... i was blur .... i don know where he took the cab to ...... he reach at 4 plus . i was abit pissed ... bcos he didnt mention thing properly... like trying to hide... it terrible to keep thinking was he is hiding ....


any way ... we had fun ...... he came .. awhile later we had the BBq .... he started the fire . lOl his hand was all black ...the best part was his nose kana some chacoal ... LOl..... look so cute .. he feed mi alot ..... the best food he always deserve for mi .. jus like the OTA on my plate it was cook a while ago ... his was jus cook and he exchange for mi and gave mi the Hot Nice OTa...... isnt he great ..... and keep feeding mi the bread that he toasted ..... i feel like princess ...


THe best part was at nite ........ we squeeze ourselve in the small single bed ... LOl.. it feel warm .. lying on his shoulder and slp .. it been so long slping on his shoulder and hugging his fat tummy .. + ) first nite wasnt great cos i hardly sleep cos he snore too loud !!!!!! i was so afraid that my friends couldnt slp becos of him so i didnt slp to watch him slp almost whole nite ... to make sure he doesnt snore too loud . if he does .... i will jus lighty pinch his nose Hee .... i know it a bit funny but tt the only way he don snore too loud .... did had a good slp make mi so tired ... but second nite was the best ........... = )

Next morning went to arcade play had lunch .. go back room ... my cutie pie went to slp again .. i didnt want him slp cos he slp so much ... It like he slp not becos he is tired but it a habit he become .......... so i lied beside him while he snore i keep disturbing him .. shake him to wake up ... bite him ......... keep toking to him ..... he jus doesnt want to wake up ...... i so sad ....... i slp beside him looking at him .. saw his irritated face ..... = ( he was like wanting to scold mi ...... ...... but he didnt he jus turn his back to face mi .. than look at his back ... i cried ... i don know why i cried ... maybe cos i haven been seeing him and yet this is the way he treated mi ... i cover the blanket from my toe to my head....... cry and cry (slient) until i fall aslp ..... i don know when i fall aslp.... but when i wake up ....... i saw the blanket is not covering my face anymore ...... and i m slping on my cutie pie should .... i don know how i end up slping on his should ...... but some how i feel happy ... Lol he seem hugging mi tight .. than i forgot everything abt him ignoring mi when he was slping ....... love is jus so blind ............ i keep asking how did my head end up on his shoulder ...... and he keep saying magic ... -__-" ... some how i really wish when i was slping ... he is looking at my thinking i m so cute .. LOL !!!!!!!! cos when he slp i really like looking at him ... like a baby ..... = )

during the nite ...... around 1 am then slp cos he was watching the race car....... i was pretty tired so i lied on the bed first while he sitting there watching tv .........when the race finish he still watching the person toking ........when i hear the toking part i become more tired .... LOl... than he switch off the tv and there goes our nite sleeping this time i got no strength to watch him slp cos i m really tired.... but a bit sad cos it the last day and tml he going to work again.... 645 he going to wake up ... so hope he had a good slp ... i feel like we are old couple ..... i don know why ... jus feel like we are not anymore those dating couple .......... some time i hope he pay a bit more attention to mi ....... example ..... look into my eyes and say "i love u " sincerly ... hug mi from behind .......... bla bla bla ..........

when 645 am strike ....... he already woke up ..... i open my eye saw him walking to the out of the toliet ... than he pack his things ........ i walk him down ....... hug and good bye kiss.......... and i already started to miss him already ....... i saw him walk away ....... went back to room and slp but feel that the bed had more space ..... really miss him ....... although we jus spend 1 1/2 day together ....... It like nv been enough for mi ..... = ) really miss him

Memories

U promise that u tried to met mi on fri ...... i was excited .. but sadly again u say u will be working late ..... so we cant met ......


remember last time u took ur time cycle all the way from ur house to mine .... now is jus memories...


on sat i was working hoping to see u although i m still angry abt friday ... cos u didnt even msg mi when u reach hm ... tot u coming ..... and again ......u sms mi say u going dinner wif ur parents and grandmom ..... we cant met .... i almost break down ...


remember last time christmas ..... ur parents came to sg ....... when i was working .... i left my wallet in the shop no money to go home not even bus fare.... u came all the way down from woodland ur grandmom's house... pass mi some money.. and sent mi home


I always feel i m giving too much and u giving too little .... i feel so bitter ......


Thing Change .........


so do u .........


Let all these be memories ......

Jia YoU !!!!!!

H mmm hi everyone long time no see ........ Miss Mi Huh ? LOl = )

Well Due to my internet break down and also exam time .... i didnt online for almost 1 week or more i guess...... Anyway now HOLIDAY Yeahh !!!!! YippY!!!

Holiday i going to really go on diet ! i even bought Wt Machine ... SEE i m serious this TIme .>>. lOL... but don know will success anot ... Jus now .. Candy and mi decided to slim down by this yr ..... Lol Don know can anot = p I really wan to slim la ....... LIke the Jing Shang Sung... LOl wahaha she damn cute le. ...

I bought new swim costume... Pls give mi the determination ............... = ) Jai YOu Pig!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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He is so Busy

today is jus a normal day ... Oh jus tt i M broke ! ... Lol running out of cash .... Any way still can survive .... + )

My Fat pig seem soooo Busy .... always so busy .. yesterday say wan to call mi after work but didnt call... he finish work around 1130 pm ... -_-" Lol btw i slept early yesterday 845 on my stupid bed liao ... = X even if he call also cannot reach mi ...

Jus now he call Mi ... but i didnt ans ..... =_=" he still at work cos he using office nUm ... sAd .. hE sure every tired de ..... AHHhhhhhhhh why like tt ..... why ppl work sooo HArd when they don even know wad they working for ? ... the future? haizz ....... I don wana work so hard without any reason ..... for $$? haizz.....

Today met my grandmom .. lOl she out of cash ... early morning call mi ... haha Ask for $100 .. too much ... Lol can afford to give her ... only give her 20 first ... sad .. cant provide her when she is broke ... I told her to cook at hm .. so to save more money ... i jus home i can give her More ... but i really don wana touch my saving acc ... U know i m a person who don save .... so now i save is becos of my future. ..... haiz ......... HOpe mOney drop from sky ... LOL.... wad if money is not impt in this world ... wad happen when every thing is not like now ... i wish i can build my own house on a big piece of land .... = ) My dream ... this may not come true ... = ( .....


Oh ... when i was toking to my grandmom today ... we tok abt future Lol .... i told her rating a house is sooo exp ... complianing lOl than i told her when i 22 i going to ROM ... Lol .... her reaction was OK ..... LOl........ i think she really very supportive le ....... Lol ... guess she know i m serious this time.... I told her i have some Cash wif my bf .... and she say nvm la ..... jus give him la ... Waahhahaa -__-'" some thing really werid abt her.. cos she know tt he spend alot on mI = / .... Anyway .. my money is Mine his money is MIne toOOO lOl... $_$ Lol Jus kidding = p ...

the person i need can nv be reach

I called and called ..... all i hear is either i cannot get through or the operator say" the starhub user i m calling cannot be reach"

i keep calling although i know wad result i would get ... i know i wont be able to get through.. i jus hope some how it get through.. i jus hope some how i get miricle ..... it nv did although....
The only possible thing is that his Hp totally low batt or he is on the phone .... guess his hp totally low batt and he is still working .... guess he is super stress now.... over his project... He told mi he got Diarreah today..... he went to poly clinic ... and he going back to work after seeing the doc ... Poor thing rite .....

But i cant reach hm now... i haven been seeing him yet .... i feel sad ... will i b cure after seeing him? or it will get worsen even time i nv see him .... or he is not affected by mi ...... i suddenly feel like being hug by some one who love mi very much from the back... i love being hug from back ....it feel like i have a shell to protect mi from behind .... like tutle .... = )

wad my level of pirioty in ur heart..... i think it has lessen ... maybe ........ it nv been high at all ? LOl ....... sian ...... after a sleep .... wad i felt today is gone ....... and it will hide in my unconcience side ........ hide there forever ....... don know when will it come out again ......

wad a bf

Some oNe commented that i have got a bf ........but it seem like i don have a bf ....

Some time i think it true too ..... becos wad really is a bf ?
Someone u love and someone who love u ? issit this only?
plus also someone who u call to talk about thing happened Today On the phone .... chit chat .. u love mi i love u ... bla bla bla ...... ?
Some one whom u wish to see all the time....
Someone when u don see him jus 1 wk u feel terrible .... u feel like a person who need drug badly ( i think not so worse la )

I feel werid ... i always tot he is the only one who care abt mi ......... but it not true .... some one else care too .... why do tt someone else care when i don even Care for him at all .... why love is sooo stupid ....... like no Brain ....

I mISs Him

TOday is sat .... Normally i would met him ...... But today we didnt met ..... not even tml (sun) too .... = ( haizz. during afternoon it was alrite... I have got my grandmom accompany ... than later on i got Jacky accompany ..... untill after the mOvie .. i was left alone ... i feel Lonely cos the road look so dark .... i feel so unsecure ..... Haizz..... not at home ... cant hear his voice... = ( sad ... cos his Hp low batt... whole day i feel so sad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! any way i finally ... taste the feeling of missing him... last time always see him lIke ..... Don really have the feeling of missing .... now ...... i really feel like hugging him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! = ( i miss his everything !!!!!!!! i really hope we can met tml ......... really...........

My secret been review

I m so sad today..... Be cos my best sis found out one of my secret which i Hide from Her..... I think i hurt her ... She always try to cover for mi my mistakes... i feel so guilty ...... i tried to forget but ...... i didnt know she will find out .... it all My fault ... i feel very bad now .. i donknow how to face her ... she been always so nice to mi .... she scolded mi i tot we are not going to b friend again ......... haizz.... once again she forgive mi ....... i don deserve it at all ........ i should be left alone ............ i don know how to face her when i see her ....... i don know wad to tell her when we see each other ...... she is jus so unlucky to have mi ......